View from a mile down the road:
If you didn’t know, after my last post about the shooting, my community has since been on fire (I just got internet access back). What a fucking week. I went from a town vigil to evacuating Adam’s mom to then evacuating myself and my family. Not to mention neighbors. I’m so proud of my little town for coming together.
So here’s the thing: we lost our house once in a fire. We lost everything.
I was the lucky one away at college, who still had clothes to spare. But things like memories, like the piano we learned to play on, the books we learned to read from, the photographs and albums—all of them gone.
Sure, people say stuff is just stuff and things are just things…but stuff and things are still always tied to memory.
In my house this week, people congregated. Evacuees sitting in my living room. Six dogs underfoot. And when the flames hit the hillside down the road, it was our time to pack.
You can’t possibly imagine trying to gather memories. I grab the pictures. My Macbook. The Nikon and a photo album. Five books from my library, in case I need to start another. But before all of these things, I gather animals.
I scoop up my sleeping chickens, place them into crates. Package my rabbit in the backseat of the car. We take apart my bed to get my screaming yowling hissing cat from out behind the mattress, and put her in the front. She scratches the hell out of me. I chase down my duck and goose, tackling them. Terrorizing them, certainly, but living is better than dead. My knees muddy. At first I care, and then remember suddenly I don’t. I wrestle with the hissing goose, and stuff her in the car. She’ll thank me for it later.
Probably, I have too many animals, which isn’t quite conducive in a situation such as this. Nonetheless, they all go with me, or we all go out together.
I pack clothing as an afterthought. All else is left behind.
Before you leave a house when there are flames around a corner, you just stand for a minute. Knowing that you may not come back to it. Knowing it could all be gone. It’s surreal. You try to think about what you have forgotten. You think, should I grab the artwork? Should I grab the plants? The pillows? Wall hangings? All of it becomes too overwhelming, and so you grab some random artifact, and leave all else behind. But still, you stand for a moment. You look. Memorize the floor plan. Pet the wall. I know, it sounds crazy, but you’d do it. You’d just kind of stand there, stroking the wall. Watching. Memorizing. Already missing what you have.
And then you pack off and head to your grandmother’s house down the road. Turn on the TV and watch the burning. Pour out some whiskey. Drive around the neighborhood and pray your home does not erase itself.
You don’t sleep. In fact, it will be at least another 12 hours before you get any rest. For me, it’s more like 20. You keep driving back to your house, hoping it’s still there. Better now to watch it burn, then to come back later and find nothing.
See, we are lucky. Our house did not burn this week. We are not yet out of danger, as the winds are kicking up again, but we are safe for now. Others aren’t so lucky. Pray for them and send them your well wishes. Donate if you’re able.
President Trump was wrong today. We do care about our land. We care about our forests, and how our land is managed. We gather rainwater in barrels; we wash our cars in the rain; we recycle and use green products; we’ve turned our lawns to drought friendly rock-paved gardens. Our Fire Departments are outrageously diligent. They saved my house yesterday from a fire that surely would have been its end. You have no idea how tired they are. How dirty, covered in soot. How engines are here from towns two, three, four hours out. Our communities are kind and supportive, helping one another to evacuate. In each others’ homes, taking photos off the wall. We care. We manage. But we are fighting a climate that we have, ourselves, globally created. Withhold your funding as you will; we will raise enough to eclipse the little that you take. We care. Our communities are strong, and will see the end of all this struggle.
Be safe out there. Give a lot of love. Pray for all the beautiful and wondrous acres that we’ve lost. Our home is hurting, but resolve runs strong. We’ll find a thousand little ways to put it back together.
pc cred: Nat Geo
Wow. What you do ? Travel photography or some nature research ?
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Nope. I mean, yes, but not professionally. I’m a writer 🙂
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Cool. I just like the photos you put of places. You are lucky you can travel so much. Never hang boots.
What you write ? As in column or novel or short stories ?
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A lot of short stories. Blogs. Working on a novel right now actually 😊 and travel is vital! No matter how close or far you go, experience and relationship is everything
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Ohh. A unique personality must say.
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OMG that’s another terrible blow, I can’t believe it! Your poor community, and spirits. It’s great you’re all pulling together now, in the face of the crisis; it’s the coming weeks and months that can get tediously tiring, as so many struggle to recover. May your entire country back you up, and donate, ‘cos your president is absolutely [dangerously] useless. Sending love from Australia, G
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Oi you’re telling me. It’s okay, we don’t need his negativity. We don’t want it either. He can keep that nonsense because there are people like you out there who lift others up instead of tear them down. Thank you for your words and friendship 💕
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My dear Shayleene, our hearts go out to you, again. We will try to keep you in our hearts and in the Light. When you establish a donate window we will be there to give. Thank God you and your family and pets survived!
Love from Ireland!
🙏🙏🙏
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We’re there! In hearts and light. We can feel it here, from all of you. It’s quite astounding, actually. So thank you for it. We are nothing without one another ❤️
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Dear Shayleene, I live in the UK and have followed your blog for a long time and am so sad that you are facing such traumatic events. Your words are a precious thing to me and have often inspired and uplifted me. I hope that you find love and support in the people around you and practical support to rebuild lives. Holding all of you in the Light and prayer. Anne
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Anne,
Kind words. Truly. I think we are all a certain kind of family on here, and I think it is so important for our experiences to be shared ones. Thank you for sharing in mine—you are part of that love and support we find. ❤️
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We are covered in the smoke and ash of your devastation all the way out here in Hollywood. Even being so near, your post has brought me in closer and I am so very sorry for what is happening in TO. You guys have proven to be an amazingly strong and tight knit community; something for all of us in California to think about. Thank you for sharing. Sending healing and positive thoughts.
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Thank you for reading! Breath safely out there, and be safe neighbor 😊 our communities are not as far as we think.
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You write a good blog but the use of the “F” word is really not necessary. Don’t spoil your written word..
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Thank you for your feedback 😊 but I think the beautiful thing about having a rich and diverse community of writers is that we all have different approaches to the written word. Words really only have the meaning that we give them. Be well. ✌🏼💕
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And sometimes ‘F’ words ARE bloody necessary! 🙂
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Without a doubt 😉
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Hang in there with the fires. Keep using the “F” Word alot, I love it!
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Hahaha I love it too! 🤭🤭 and thank you ❤️
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Welcome-
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I can’t believe what we are seeing on the news – it is like the apocalypse! You’ve been on my mind and I hope that you continue to be safe. Love and hugs to you. ❤
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We are safe! Thank you. It is wild for sure. Much love back to you–thank you for your kindness.
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Just what you needed, eh? … I think Herself is just about done being nice to humans at the moment…. so glad you got all your family, of varied species, to safety. Thank goodness for Grandma’s house. 🙂
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I agree. Time to spend some time being kind back to her. ❤ A lot of it.
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Shayleene, good that you are safe, but dreadful to hear from your experiences. We pray for all those in danger. I have US based friends who are firefighters, and they are as disgusted by the President’s comments as I am. In times of crisis people have to come together and show solidarity to those who lost everything and also to those who put their life on the line every day to help, not polarize with some totally wrong and inadequate statements. Stay safe! Marcus
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Could not agree more. We love our firefighters, our forests and our communities. I am seeing a lot of strength out here, and it is encouraging. Thank your friends for me! And thank you for your words ❤️
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Thanks for sharing! Resolve is a very good thing.
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Sad
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Very.
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